It’s wildly unpleasant and unsought for. anxiety.
Mostly it is nonsensical.
When I try to convey to others the hellish limbo that I feel I’m under when immobilized by anxiety – my outcries are often silenced by the same bundle of responses:
“Get over it”
“Just be happy”
“Don’t think about it”
“You have everything you could want, there isn’t anything to be sad or worried about”.
The annoying congruence of each of these statements just about makes me want to laugh and scream at the same time. The thing about anxiety is that it exists in a multitude of forms – each one no less distressing than the other. It is utterly exhausting wrenching my brain explaining time-and-time again, that the anxious mind is completely aware of the so. not. profound, tired phrases listed in bold ^ – it just won’t accept it. But that is not a call for pity either.
Sometimes anxiety is as “simple” as feeling like you are so unbelievably cognizant of the fact that your brain is in your body, that it stresses you out. Sometimes it’s more than that.
It’s like, your subconscious runs marathons while your more rational conscious mind is walking at a steady pace – yet the sporadic union of the two is often too much for the mind as a whole to handle. Thoughts about the biggest trivialities in life can stress you out, as can more pressing issues. But it is stress in the form of merciless waves – they consume you and every time you get a moment to stick your head out of the water, another wave inundates you. And nomatter how good of a swimmer you are, you feel as though you will never be able to get out of the water.
You lack control. But there are ways for that control to be regained.
If you’ve ever seen the movie Inception, the premise is to plant an idea in the mind of someone else. But this idea is planted at the subconscious level rather than at the forefront of the mind, because thoughts, in general, are so deep-seated, that in order to truly believe an idea, whatever that may be, it has to come from the deepest part of the mind. This idea (no irony intended), is pertinent to the anxious mind. Anxious people have the ability to think differently – which comes not from other people telling them to think differently, but rather by training the mind over time at the subconscious level to not attack every thought, both harmless and evil, but rather to accept them, not compartmentalize and ignore problems, and face them head-on. Eventually, the mind works itself out, at the subconscious level.